Is this really overwhelm?

If you were to ask me anytime recently how I am, I might have replied that I am exhausted and overwhelmed…

working two businesses, parenting, maintaining land and animals, renovating… It’s been rare that I’ve made it to bed before midnight this last week.

… Yet I hesitate to commit myself to this statement: I am exhausted and overwhelmed…. Why?

Well, you know, it’s just not the whole truth. I’m also feeling so deeply pleased, grateful, rich and full… with my work, children, partner, creativity, spirituality, friends and finances – just to name a few!

When I bring my attention to the present moment. Like right now. Fully. Rivet my attention here… That which seemed overwhelming is no longer so.

In the here and now, a spaciousness expands around me and I am spontaneously, naturally aware of the privilege and grace that fills my life.

What about you?

No matter what you are wrestling with in your personal or professional or domestic life… No matter what overarching themes might be weighing you down… No matter what the facts of your day or week or month…

I’m curious: When you bring all your attention here and now, what happens?

Please, share your experience in the comments below.

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Acknowledging heritage, following calling

This weekend is a holiday here: Australia Day. Also known as Invasion Day. It’s a holiday with a history that isn’t particularly simple, or pleasant. Yet it can’t easily be denied, ignored or forgotten: As citizens of this country and inhabitants of this land, this complex and difficult history is our heritage.

 

Your heritage and your soul calling

It seems like we all come into life with karma much bigger than our own. We inherit the stories of our gender, of our race and culture, of our nation and of our ancestors. We inherit our physical bodies with their particular strengths and weaknesses. We inherit the earth – in it’s dangerous flux of pollution and resilience. We inherit social, political, economic and educational systems that we may or may not ultimately support, or feel supported by.

And so our souls arrive: Innocent, impressionable and imbued with our own divine spark or purpose to unfold… we find ourselves amidst the density of our inheritance… Full, as it is, of both confirmations of and contradictions to who we really are.

 

The problem with ignorance

As dense or difficult as it may be, it’s not like we can just ignore this heritage, while we get on with following the call of our soul. That would be the kind of ignoring that I am referring to when I say ‘ignorance’.

Australia was founded upon the principle ‘terra nullius’, meaning “empty land”. This was our founding ignorance: a lack of true and deep acknowledgment of what came before. Our ignorance of people, land, spirit and the connections between them, enabled violent and inhumane colonial processes… And deprived us of  the wealth of cultural and spiritual richness that might have otherwise informed our future. From this foundation, our country has grown in ways which are not inclusive, healthy, sustainable or soulful.

Even on a very personal level, it can be tempting to ignore what has come before… The family members you are not proud of, the personal history you would prefer to forget. Yet ignorance doesn’t really serve you. The foundations for a healthy, sustainable and soulful life lie elsewhere.

 

The healing power of acknowledgment (more…)

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A new breath…

A new year, a new moon, a new breath, a new moment…

Ahhhh….

No matter what great joy or what great struggle you are facing right now, there is the possibility of not foreclosing on what will happen next. We may have ideas, pictures or concepts about what the next moment will bring. But truthfully, we can never really be sure.

I think in the past, my very human fear of uncertainty has stopped from really facing the reality of this. How unknowable even the next moment is.

And yet, the more I do (face the mystery of this millisecond), the more I discover the liberating freedom that is here and now. With all the known and unknown possibilities of life not yet unfolded.

Of course, it helps to see each moment as a gift… No matter how uncomfortable or frightening it is. I can’t help feeling that I am blessed just to be. That we all are.

So. this is my experience. What is yours? If you don’t foreclose on the next moment, how does it feel?

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Happy New Year, beloved!

This December full moon, as 2012 draws to a close I give thanks for the extraordinary year this has been, with all its gifts and challenges (which, it turns out, were also gifts 🙂 ).

It’s a year that, for me at least, has been far from comfortable. And yet how could I regret a single moment? Somehow, finding myself in the difficult moments has allowed me to learn freshly what is true and real… Beyond my fantasy of what is liked or wanted or preferred. And this is a great gift.

Of course, it’s wonderful to be happy, flowing, connected, blessed and joyous. And thank god these experiences happen… to all of us… at some time or another. In these moments, it is easy to feel a part of the divine everything.

Yet when life has me feeling scattered, disconnected, separate, frustrated or sad… I have often asked myself, “What’s wrong with me?” … In addition to the simple discomfort of the very human experience, there is the feeling that I have somehow fallen from grace… lost my way somewhere on the path of divine.

But what’s clear to me now, is we can’t lose our way. Not you, nor I. Nobody can.

When we think, even subconsciously, that these happy, connected feelings are “good” and the frustrated, disconnected feelings are “bad”, we appear to stop the flow of grace. In fact, we haven’t stopped it. It can’t be stopped! We have simply failed to recognize the grace that is here.

It doesn’t always show up happy.

So, yes, 2012 has been full of blessings and discomfort for me. And what I now know for sure, is that in all of these experiences, the beautiful, deep rightness of the divine essence has never been far away. In fact, it’s always been closer than my ideas of what’s okay.

So, dear one, this is my Christmas gift to you – a conviction that whatever happened for you in 2012… it was grace. And whatever you do or attempt in 2013, you cannot put a step wrong!

Happy New Year, beloved!

 

ps… How does this post land for you? Does it make sense, or do you feel differently?  Please share your thoughts with me in the comments below.

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New moon, new website, new song…

Notice anything new, love?

Ta da! Introducing my new website…

With a focus on supporting  finding and following the call of the soul – that which draws us out of the known, habitual routines of our lives and into new adventures – inner and outer – to express our deepest gifts and, through them, to touch, heal and transform the world.

Eeek…. My first homespun song production… (more…)

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The Power of Gentleness

Have you noticed that things have been pretty intense lately?

In your emotional and spiritual life, I mean. In my own life… and that of my family, friends and clients, I’m blown away at how consistently everything has been so… hard. I’m blessed to associate with a lot of conscious people who are aware of the blessings in all of life’s challenges. So most would agree that – in essence – it’s a good kind of hard. Yet we’ve been facing fears that are deeper, resistances that are stronger, vulnerabilities that are more tender… than anything we’ve faced before.

What makes awakening so hard?

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